Starting to feel somewhat normal, and big thanks to my mom for holding the little one, I am able to steel away for a blogging moment.
On August 5Th 2010 in the early evening, I began to feel what I hoped were real contractions. I had had some earlier in the week that would come and go but lead to nothing. So this time I was trying not to get my hopes up just in case. When Josh came home from Bible study...my body said "stay home!"...I was still feeling little back pains. Not wanting to panic or get ahead of myself, I went to bed to see if they would change or decide to linger. They lingered. By 5:30 am ,same time I went into labor with Korban, I knew this was it! We made a few phone calls and packed up the car ready to face the day ahead of us.
It wasn't too bad driving down the dirt road this time, I was dreading it before hand, and Josh got us to the hospital as quickly and safely as possible as the contractions were already about 6 minutes apart. It seemed a little surreal this time. I was of sound mind since things seemed to be progressing at predictable moments and we were not rushed into any medical rooms or surgery right away. It was neat to see all the things they normally do to check in a laboring mommy and anxious Dad. Benjamin's heart beat was good and he seemed to be tolerating the labor pains better than me. I had my cheer leading squad of my mom and Jess ready with ice chips in hand. Ice never tasted sop good! I really had no idea what this was going to be like and what the pain would be like as things progressed. My amazing husband was a huge support and knew just how to hold me through the contractions...you really do need something to hold onto, Jesus, your hubby, or a hospital bed railing, anything to get you through it. I do not remember much of what happened between my contractions from 7 to 10 centimeters but I do remember that it hurt! Oh my the pain. I still cannot come up with the perfect word to describe it, it is kind of a toss up between having hot coals poured on to your back and lying down on a bed of nails, you pick.
Finally after attempting a couple of pushes it was decided that baby Ben was not doing well with his little heart and once again we were rushed into an emergency c-section. Once again my husband could not go with me and I have to say after all was said and done and when I found out he was not in the room, it broke my heart. But my faithful husband was not going to let it get in the way of video taping as much as possible through a tiny little window on the OR door.
At 4:20 pm on August 6Th Benjamin Shepherd Steinberg was born weighing in at 8 lbs 2 oz. He was healthy and strong and very very hungry! He looks so much like his brother in so many ways but definitely has his own identity as well. Its like a flash back but this time with a video to see and hear for the first time our precious little baby. Holding him for the first time and feeling that love of another little person that needs you so much is just the best feeling in the world.When I finally got to watch the video I felt so redeemed from the first time...I love you Josh:)
He is almost 2 weeks old now and we have just been trying to get through all the new and interesting things that come along with a newborn and a two year old. Which by the way Korban is an amazing big brother, I'm so thankful he is not jealous! Benjamin has checked out great with his health and his circumcision went well...that's always important! He now weighs 9 lbs and it is not even two weeks yet! I'm going to have a big eater on my hands.There is so much more that went on during our stay but that is for another blog, the important thing is we are all home and healthy now just enjoying the 4 of us:)
